Nightmare

“God’s delay is not God’s denial.” 

- Ephesians 1:11 

Please notice. I was not hired yet at that moment. The hiring process just took off. A hiring manager stepped in to test every aspect of me to ensure I was the perfect fit for the company. Somehow I felt fearless, even though someone was trying to push me off the ground. I really thought that I already had the dream job. 

Fast forward to the end of the hiring process. Along the way, I stood up and fought for the things I wanted. I believed a happy ending was waiting on the finish line. I died trying to the last second of the race. This was an email I got: 

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Hi Nobody - 

First of all, thank you again for your interest in Wood Egg. 

After a long discussion with Derek and many quite difficult decisions on my part we have decided on someone else for the researcher position. 

You should know that it came down to the wire. If something doesn't work out with our 2014 class of researchers I hope you'll be available to save the day. And if not, no hard feelings. 

Thanks again. It was great chatting with you on Skype and I know you'll do great things. 

- Hiring Manager 

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I really wanted to cry. (At the time I was typing that I really wanted to cry, I thought my English was not good enough to express how depressed I was.) I didn't know what to do. I felt like I was the dumbest guy in the world. 

Sadness, I was for the entire day. I went to bed, putting on the eye cover and forcing myself to sleep. I told myself, “after waking up the next morning, I would be a phoenix reborn.” I needed to let go of everything. But I couldn't. I couldn't sleep until 01:00 am. (Usually I fall into sleep at 11:30 pm.) I realized I needed to make my last pitch. Otherwise, I couldn't loosen myself. I was still in a tense mode. I was a fighter on stage. If the rival didn't knock me off totally, I will fight until the last breath. 

This was the final punch to my face: 

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Hi Nobody - 

Sorry. I really do appreciate that, but at this time we're happy with our Hong Kong researchers. 

- Hiring Manager 

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At last, I admitted the fact that I lost. I left the stage with peace. I finally got back to my normal life. It was like a dream. I woke up and got back to reality. But deep down in my soul, I still believe in dreams. I still believe that I can be Anything I Want as long as I am willing to take action on it until I realize it, no matter what…...

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